Well at lot has gone on in my life in the past little while...

I won the Captain Alex Blake Memorial Award through the Firefighters Burn Fund. The criteria was: active community and school involvement and participation in fire safety, burn prevention and awareness in the school or community. Oh and you had to be a burn survivor.

Today I got my first 'cause' band (yes I believe I posted on Strider's blog and said I don't wear one, but things change). The band is red and it's for the Heart and Stroke Foundation. This morning (after work I might add) I participated in the Big Bike for Stroke with the Langley Hearts in Motion Walking group. It was an experience! The Hearts in Motion group is a seniors group that walks and volunteers in the community. They raised a lot of money for stroke! One man raising over $2500!!!!!! We rode on a bike for 30 around downtown Langley. It was a riot and an honour for me to be involved.

As always I am very inspired to get more involved.

Today I also had an eye opening experience. A past friend of mine and I talked about our now non existent friendship. We had a falling out of sorts. We both said things that were hurtful and, since we both our stubborn, have let it really get to us. I miss my friend but today our friendship officially came to an end. Out of anger, resentment, shame or truth I do not know, he basically said that I was stuck up and that I thought I was better than others. Its hard to hear someone say those things, especially someone who was once a good friend. I know in my heart that that is not true and if others truly have perceived me like that I'm sorry because that's not how I want to appear. Yes I am different than other people and yes I like that I am my own person but everything I do that is 'different' is not because I just want to stand out and be different/ better. I do everything in my life because that's how I am. It makes me, me. I love wearing crazy clothes and helping people and I love my eyebrow piercing because my family hates it and I like staying home sometimes on the weekends so I will say no to hanging out and I don't like to spend all my time at big drunken parties but that doesn't mean I don't like to spend my time with the people there and yes I don't talk to everyone all the time and yes if someone offends me or hurts me I won't be super nice to them but then again I won't be mean and yes I am honest and truthful all the time when a lot of the time I shouldn't be and yes I don't like or want to be friends with everyone on this planet and I love being me. To the person who is no longer my friend, you know who you are, thank you for what you said today even if it hurt because it made me think about who I am and whether or not I was happy with who I was. Thank you for everything, you were a great friend.

Run for the Cure

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Be Aware! Pick a cause!

So today is my birthday. I am all of 18 years old now. Whooo- oohhh (please note there was sarcasm intended with that onomatopoeia). I'm not excited. Maybe its the fact that I feel older and have felt older than 18 for awhile now. Or maybe its because everyone just considers me to be older than that anyways. Or maybe its because I haven't been excited about anything much lately. Or maybe... Who knows..

I've been tagged.... super ;)

I got tagged by Striderhttp://sounddestruction.blogspot.com/ so now its my turn to tag and answer questions. If you came here after because I tagged you please post the answers to these questions and tag five other people. Here are my answers:

1. Number of books I own: Wow, I actually had to do work for this question, lets see...... 63. This is all I could easily see and count, I'm sorry but I'm just too tired to go searching around the house for more.

2. Last book you bought: Well I bought 3 in one day: (1) "Pretty Girl in Crimson Rose" A memoir of love, exile and crosswords- by Sandy Balfour (2) " Missing Sarah" A Vancouver women remembers her vanished sister - by Maggie de Vries (3) "No Uncertain Terms" On Language - by William Safire. As you can probably tell I read a lot of non- fiction. Actually that's all I read.

3. Last book I read: "More, Now, Again" A book about addiction. I'm currently reading "Revenge" about, you guessed it, revenge. I love books. I think I'm actually in the middle of a few. I also have Stephen King's "On Writing" started. And I'm forever in the middle of Promiscuities, my favourite book. I read and re-read it perpetually.

4. Five books that have meant a lot to me:
1. Promiscuities by Naomi Wolf. I loved this book so much because it reminds girls/ women to be proud of themselves in all aspects of live, including sexual experience. It is written using real experiences, both good and bad, of real women.

2. 1984 by George Orwell. Even though I was forced to read this book by my English teacher I fell in love with it. I really admire the way Orwell uses fiction to express and help us understand the facts of a true event.

3. The Bible. "Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength." (By the way there is no order to this I'm just going by the order in which I the books are lined on the shelf.)

4. Manolo Blahnik Drawings. If you know me you know I am obsessed with shoes and fashion. Enough said.

5. Pink Think - by Lynn Peril. A hilariously entertaining book that breaks down all the lies women were once told about becoming the 'ideal women'.

Enjoy.

So I came across a site that listed the 10 most harmful books of the 19th and 20th century as chosen by "conservative scholars."

http://www.humaneventsonline.com/article.php?id=7591

1. The Communist Manifesto
2. Mein Kampf
3. Quotations from Chairman Mao
4. The Kinsey Report
5. Democracy and Education
6. Das Kapital
7. The Feminine Mystique
8. The Course of Positive Philosophy
9. Beyond Good and Evil
10. General Theory of Employment, Interest and Money

I have read a few of the books listed here and I found them quite enlightening. Most of them are quite famous and the appearance of them as literature as helped to shape and challenge our society.

"By now you shoulda somehow realized what you gotta do..."

So I realize its been quite awhile since I posted. I'm trying to decide what I want to do with this. I might erase everything and start from scratch, or I might not. I don't think anyone really reads this so I might just make it private and have it just for myself. Or I might turn it into a way for me to start writing my book. So that until I get a laptop I can write and continue with it from any pc.

Anyways I guess I will talk about the assembly since I promised to on a previous post. Life has just gotten in the way of my writing I guess.

The assembly was a hit. There were mixed reactions from the girls but I think that is good. The ones who were thankful for the assembly saw the need for it and respected what we were doing and the ones that got mad because of it were mad because they felt convicted and I see that as a good thing. At the beginning things were a little crazy, and if you know me you know that I like things organized, but it worked out. I think that the best and most important outcome of the assembly was that the girls realized that they need to be true to themselves.

Last night a friend and I had a girls- in night. After we watched our uber-girly movie we began to just talk about life, school, family and guys. I realized that I can't settle. Not for anything or anyone in my life. I realize that I might sound stuck up by saying that but I don't care.