CHERISH LIFE

Write a song. Dance a jig. Hike. Get up early to see the sunrise. Say thank you. Send a card. Write a love note. Do your best. Give. Mentor. Be a mentee. Fly a kite. Read. Send an e-card. Exercise. Visit family. Babysite for free. Volunteer. Sing. Suprise someone. Cry. Laugh. Make a mix CD for someone. Help. Stay up late. Giggle. Watch for shooting stars. Make a wish. Go to the drive in. Have a picnic. Sleep in. Love. Make a difference. Tell your life story. Vote. Call an old friend. Make a new friend. Go against the odds. Tell someone you are proud of them. Cut your neighbour's grass. Enjoy the sun. Take a road trip. Smile more. Watch the sunset. Throw a party. Play tourist for a day. Try new things.

Well this may be my last entry for awhile. I go to camp this weekend and then I start on the 1st of July (YAY CANADA DAY!).

Highschool is almost over....One more semester to get through. I must get better grades! I find that over the course of my highschool career that my level of wanting to be there has greatly diminished. I love friends and I genuinely appreciate some courses but I can't wait until I am done. This is all I can think about it.

This One's For The Girls

By Martina McBride

This is for all you girls, about thirteen.
High School can be so rough; can be so mean.
Hold onto, onto your innocence.
Stand your ground, when everybody's givin' in.

This one's for the girls.

This is for all you girls, about twenty-five.
In little apartments just tryin' to get by.
Livin' on, on dreams and Spaghettios.
Wonderin' where your life is gonna go.

This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world,
This one's for the girls.
(This one's for all the girls.)

This is for all you girls, about forty-two.
Tossin' pennies into the fountain of youth.
Every laugh, laugh line on your face,
Made you who you are today.

This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world:
This one's for the girls.

Yeah, we're all the same inside (Same inside.)
From one to ninety-nine:

This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world, yeah,
This one's for the girls.
(This one's for all the girls.)

Yeah, this one's for the girls.
(This one's for all the girls.)

Today marks the 17th year of life-long journey. Along with the end of grade 11, I suppose I could say that it also marks a new chapter in my life. I have learned so much so far in my life (both the easy way and the hard way) that I can't wait to gain more wisdom. Here is what I have learned so far - always study in advance for exam (oh man am I dying now because I haven't!), remember that it's not how many friends you have that matter it's who they are and how special they are to you, loving someone and being loved back by that person is the most amazing feeling, trust in your faith and be true to yourself, be real, parents really do love you even when it seems like they are trying to make life really hard, teachers will always help you if you show them respect, helping someone else really helps yourself at the same time, finally I have learned that there is always someone ready to help you up when you get knocked down.

I'm beginning to think that I don't function properly when I'm busy. The pages in my dayplanner become jammed and I become distant from people. I'm sorry to those I haven't had time for lately. Karoline, you are such a sweetie and I feel priviledged to have the opportunity to watch you grown and mature. After the summer we'll definitely have to book regular dates. Thanks for staying sweet.

Today I won 3 awards. I don't really know which ones because I was at home puking. Yay for me.

She Ponders...

A girl sits by the window and ponders life,
What does it mean to find my place here?
How come things are not okay for me to do
but they are okay for others to do?
Why does it feel like her happiness is sometimes
somewhat
not counted when it comes to making other happy.
Maybe that's just how she chooses it.
Why can't everyone get along and work together
nicely and with courtesy for each other?
Why must there be bitterness and bullying?
She ponders...
But what does she know?
Just just a girl
who tries to mend what is broken,
who loves doing things for other,
who doesn't understand the way some people's minds work.
She is just a girl who
loves.


(I wrote this awhile ago and it has had many many different drafts. I often ponder why people think that I am 'so nice'. It's just how I want to be treated. Remember the Golden Rule.)

I am so not inspired. I sit and try to write but it seems impossible. It seems like all my brain wants to do is sleep or be in a vegetative state. This is not good. This is what leads to not paying attention in class,s not doing homework..and skipping if I must admit. Oh how summer makes my brain long for the weekend instead of the week. I need sleep and this no caffeine thing is making me crazy. It's in everything- coffee, tea (black tea), pop (slurpees too), and chocolate and anything that contains chocolate. I'm trying to not slip up as much as possible. It's taking lots of effort.

Oh my. I love my freedom. Having a set of wheels makes me so free. Free to go anywhere I want without having to rely on others. Oh it is nice to be free. Except I am so busy so I have no time to really enjoy my freedom. Oh well. It's still grand! :)

Sometimes I wonder how important high school really is? I mean I that you have to graduate in order to go on to post secondary and most jobs want you to have your diploma. But really? Is it all that neccessary? Shouldn't things be based on what you can do not on how you did in school? Maybe I have the wrong mindset but I think that highschool is important. I often put other things ahead of it. Oh well.