The assembly was a great success! Highlights will follow.

I am tired. Lets just start with that. I love work and I love my busy life but the two conflict. I am tired, I am always tired.

Anyways the assembly is in 2 days and its not shaping up the way I would have wanted which you know, kind of makes me crazy. I guess I'll have to just wait and see how it goes.

So today I stumbled upon this article: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/anti-feminismclub/message/571 and was completely discusted with what I read. I don't even have any words to decribe my thoughts on the subject.

PUBLISHING...

A poem of mine is going to be featured in the book 'A Celebration of Young Poets'. Here's the poem and what it means to me:


A Yearning Soul

Deep inside my hollowed heart
Beneath the walls I've tried to build
There is a soul that is pure
A soul that is real and alive
It yearns to grow and to learn and to reach the farthest corners of the Earth
With every little beat of my pulse
My soul pines to be fed, to be challenged
With all that hurts and demeans on this Earth
You would think that my soul would grow dark and weary
But no
For deep inside my hollowed heart there is a Light like no other
A like that comes from You and You alone
Thank you for always being my encouragement
When that paths darken and I begin to stumble
Deep inside my hollowed heart
Beneath the walls I've tried to build
There is a soul that yearns, lives and breathes
For You, for You


I wouldn't say that I am religious person but I am definitely spiritual and I definitely believe in God. This poem is referring to the struggles in my life. I have experienced many unpretty things and I have questioned the existence of God and whether or not He even cared about me. However, I realize that without His love for me I would not be able to get through those things. I don't see bad things that happen in my life as bad, rather I see them as opportunities to better understand others. I also see the bad things as ways to grow and learn... and to renew hope.

Well I had a fabulous post but it was deleted which made me mad. I will repost it tomorrow perhaps it was just about me getting published in a book....

ANYWAYS..... I THINK IT'S TIME FOR ANOTHER QUOTE OF THE DAY:

"You live and learn. At any rate, you live. "
-Douglas Adams

These past few days have been really great. It feels like instead of being blah everything is exciting. Since Tuesday I have met really influential women and have decided to join the Soroptimist society, things for the assembly are all falling into place, I've changed jobs to one that is far more interesting and suited to me (plus i make more money and have more hours). Yay. But I'm way to busy to write a long entry today.


If you haven't heard the song Freebird by Lynyrd Skynyrd, I suggest it.

Video- India Arie

Hmm...hmm...hmm...mmm...Ho...oh...
Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh...oh...oh...oh...
Oh, yeah, oh, yeah, oh, yeah

Sometimes I shave my legs and sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I comb my hair and sometimes I won’t
Depend on how the wind blows I might even paint my toes
It really just depends on whatever feels good in my soul

I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen

I’m not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India Arie

When I look in the mirror the only one there is me
Every freckle on my face is where it’s supposed to be
And I know our Creator didn’t make no mistakes on me
My feet, my thighs, my lips, my eyes, I’m lovin’ what I see

I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen

I’m not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India Arie

Am I less of a lady if I don’t wear pantyhose
My mama said ain’t what she wears but, what she knows
But I’ve drawn a conclusion, it’s all an illusion, confusions the name of the game
A misconception, a vast deception, something’s gotta change

Don’t be offended this is all my opinion
Ain’t nothin’ that I’m sayin’ law
This is a true confession of a life learned lesson
I was sent here to share with y’all

So get in where you fit in go on and shine
Free your mind, now’s the time
Put your salt on the shelf, go ahead and love yourself‘
Cause everything’s gonna be all right

I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen

I’m not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India Arie

Keep your fancy drinks and your expensive minks
I don’t need that to have a good time
Keep your expensive car and your caviar
All I need is my guitar

Keep your Cristol and your pistol
I’d rather have a pretty piece of crystal
Don’t need your silicone, I prefer my own
What God gave me is just fine

I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen

I’m not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I’m wearing I will always be
India Arie

I’m not the average girl from your video
And I ain’t built like a supermodel
But I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen

I’m not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes...

Here I sit with my hair a muck, smudged makeup on my fingers and the back of my hands, sweat from my run glistening on my forehead and the strap of my bra falling down my arm. Do I care about any of this? No.

Lately I have been feeling 'blah'. Life hasn't been exciting, work has been dull/ stressed, family has gotten on my nerves, writing has become a chore (as you may or may not have noticed I'm thinking about getting rid of my other blog), and I've grown away from a friend or two. I was really searching for a purpose in the chapter of my life.

Guess what? I realized it. I think in a pervious, very very previous post, I talked about an assembly that I'm creating and organizing for girls grades 8-10 in my highschool, HD Stafford. This assembly is about appearance, self confidence and relationships.

Today while running I began to think about the assembly and what I might say. I also though about next year when me and friend of mine plan to put on this assembly at other highschools and talk to girls all over the lower mainland. From this my focus shifted onto ways to make this one little idea bigger and better.

I know that I have always been a role model but I would like to take that along with my leadership qualities and enventually touch and help change the lives of many young girls.

I suppose something that sparked this may be a comment from a previous post:

strider said…
hey there...just checking in.I used to feel the same way all the time (regarding moving away and helping out)do the best you can where you are and maybe one day you will make a big move...but if you do what you can where you are you will make a difference no matter where in the world you are.think globally, act locally

Tonight I was inspired to write. That dream/ goal has kinda fallen away from me the past little while but tonight it was rightfully fueled.