What is your most likeable trait?

Back to a week of hecticness (yes I am aware that it is not a word). The grind of highschool is almost over and the thought of it is like music to my ears. But what will I do with myslf during that second semester?

in·no·cence n.

1. The state, quality, or virtue of being innocent, as:
   a.)Freedom from sin, moral wrong, or guilt through lack of knowledge of evil.
   b.)Guiltlessness of a specific legal crime or offense.
   c.)Freedom from guile, cunning, or deceit; simplicity or artlessness.
   d.)Lack of worldliness or sophistication; naiveté.
   e.)Lack of knowledge or understanding; ignorance.
   f.)Freedom from harmfulness; inoffensiveness.
2. One that is innocent.

in·no·cent adj.

1. Uncorrupted by evil, malice, or wrongdoing; sinless
2. Within, allowed by, or sanctioned by the law; lawful.
3. Not experienced or worldly; naive.
4. Unaware

I think and hope I did well on todays History test. Lately I haven't been doing so well which is very unlike me. I have no passion for school. Someone give me a kick in the right direction please.

After listening to the song 'It's not you it's me' (check out todd kerns @ www.toddkerns.com) for the millionth time and continually talking to girls (and a few guys for that matter), I wonder if the modern relationship is really a relationship. Or all we all just friends with certain benefits with certain friends? In life do we pick certain friends of the opposite sex to fit certain needs: one who you can talk to, one you are attracted to, one you could marry, one you can goof around with, one who 'gets' you. In the busy modern world do we really have the time and lifestyle for 'old fashioned' relationships?

The future is upon us
You are the leader of tomorrow
Take your stand
And fight
The good fight
Set your sights
On the goal that is worthy
And is able to be
Sustained
Don't look back
The past is behind you
All you have is the future
So
"Gather your rosebuds while ye may"
Go on
Seize the day

A Beautiful Song...
Daughters by John Mayer

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

Fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too

Why are boys so complicated. I actually give up on them now. Too much hassle, damn you. I finally try to start rebuilding a friendship. I was totally clear with the fact that all I wanted was a friendship because it wasn't working as more. And he says to one of my best friends the other day: "It's complicated, I'm just trying to be her friend." But then why is he being wierd if he knows what he wants and he knows what I want. No he's complicating it, not me. ACK. Boys are too complicated for me.

Whew that was good to get out. Can't a girl find a guy who's nice, who doesn't want a serious relationship but just casual dating, and makes her laugh?

I realize that I am okay. More okay than I thought I was in a lot of areas.

I've thought about trying to have more of an intellectual, political or activism based blog but then I realize that I need the sweet release that comes with blogging.

It is definately a destresser.

Yes indeed I am home again:

I had a nice relaxing vacation. I love spending time with my family and getting away from the stresses of my everyday life. Now I just have to find a way to come up with a $100 dollars and I'll be set.

Today my little cousin, Zach, and I were cuddling and watching Mulan. He' s 2 and very very cute! All of a sudden I noticed that my leg was a little wet. Yep he peed on me. Doesn't really make it hard to wait for a little munchkin of my own. LOL.

Love

Will I ever find something so pure, so full of passion, so real, so unstoppable, so true, so tangible, so unique, so full? For a girl who isn't even looking for a real relationship, it is odd that I have Love on the brain.

I realize that I cannot settle. There are too many things I want when it comes to Love. I know that it is out there waiting for me somewhere- searching for me the way I search for it. Not settling until it finds me.

In my life I have learned how to love, to be in a relationship, to work together, to sacrifice, to care for others and be cared for. Even though right now is the time; sometime in the future I will be looking for love.

I never really realized how fast-paced my life was until I came here. I am currently relaxing at my grandparents in La Corey, Alberta ( They live on property outside La Corey which is about 30-45 minutes from either Cold Lake or Bonnyville). These past view days I have sat around the house, slept, taken many baths in the their jacuzzi bath tubs, went to aquacise with my Grandma and walked around the property. Its very nice to actually relax and have nothing I have to do.

To Whomever Reads This:

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Oh I am completely going insane!

Bush won the election. He is President for another 4 years. Honestly I am perplexed. To this day I am still dumbfounded as to how he got elected once... and now twice it just boggles my mind. I feel sorry for the people's of America and sorry for myself because I know that Canada will somehow be affected by what he does.

If any American's are reading this go to www.boreme.com and search 'bush' and see your uber smart president at his best. (Canadians and other- go just for fun)

I am so perplexed by this that I do not know what to do with myself.

"i hate tv" - James, a wise wise boy.

I just want to be free. In a society where freedom is supposed to reign from every rooftop, I don't feel very free. I feel forced to fit into a mold that I cannot break free of. I feel forced to conform and surrender my freedom of individuality. I want to be free of the 'social norms' and the 'right path'. I want to blaze my own trail in a thick forest that has never been touched.

Now if only I could find the machete...